it's happen to me again. again. and. again. 

i've thought its already end but apparently not. 

i'm too sensitive about this & its always come into my mind until i can't do anything. 

what can i do to make other people satisfied with me?

i'm hard to admit that i enough strong to through all this by myself.

every time i just hope allah will give a lot of strength to me.

so, i don't need anyone else.

but.....for sure i can't.

sometimes i have to be fake.

just wanted to fortify myself.

but act seriously i can not stand for it.

how long i want to be fake like this? 

day by day i'm getting boring with my life.

i think i want to go farrrrrr from others.

don't want to disturb them.

don't want to control them.

don't want to live with them.

but i know i'm too selfish.

and who me to control my life.

i know allah was planned something great for me.

lets people hate me. lets people hate us.

because people's mouth we can't shut.

i just want to peace.

thats all. 

sincerely,

me.